I know i'm not that strong

what can i say now?

just only left a lot of sorry to all my friends.. especially you...

i remember that i have promised you,

i will be strong... sorry..

in fact, you were my strength when i was week~

i don't know why, maybe both of us really very fate..

i'm happy to be your friend that you believed and protected~

now i'm down, because i have done some wrong that was hurt my friends..

although i don't know what i'm done, but very sorry...

i'm moody + shameless, because i felt that i took a sword inserted in you all's bodies..

sorry that i'm done before~

wish you all can forgive me as well...

but if really can't accept my sorry, is ok..

i'm understand~ because it really my mistake~

sorry friends, sorry alison...

i don't know how to face the championship of taekwondo..

i don't know how to make my injured's leg restore in the short time..

i don't know what the skill and power i will used on that day..

i don't know how to focus and doing well when sparing(fighting)...

i don't know how to control my mind and heart...

i don't know how to continue my life...

i don't know how to calm down myself...

i just know that, i'm not that strong~

我的心情

我的心情就像天气...（一直在改变）

晴天的时候，
太阳总是特别耀眼，而我的笑容也会随着它的耀眼而灿烂。
阴天的时候，
太阳总是躲在云朵的背后，阴暗的天空像是我无奈的心情，很糟糕。
雨天的时候，
太阳哭泣了，而我也不能假装坚强。我知道自己需要的是一个肩膀。
朋友们，谢谢你们的肩膀。

今天的心情就像雨后的彩虹，
也应为这一道彩虹，让我找回了我的目标。
现在才发现唱歌能让我暂时忘记不开心的事情，
而跆拳道能让我无限的发泄我的不满。

SUNDAY，我来了！
我不害怕，我很勇敢！非常勇敢哦^^ !!!!!

p/s: 刚才去走夜市，把第一次给了喵喵，菇菇和贝贝。第一次吃臭豆腐，好好吃哦^^ 美食！
但是我很肯定，回家后要刷牙哦。虽然在嘴里酝酿的味道很棒，但是还真的受不了> <

in the hardship

Love is not a game...

please cherish the one who by your side..

i know you will happy, and i will happy to see you smile again~ this called love~

but i gonna to forget all of you now..

i'm want to continue my life by my own~

to my friend onion：

if the love just went along, then accept the truth~

don't even stand still and hope love will come back again~

i also can strong to face the truth, i think you also can wad~

wish i can see you stand up soon after this..

don't give up k, my friend~ i believe you can~ cheer up

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 and today i went to ipoh road with my family~

a nice family's day!

i felt so free and easy today ^^

wish i can have same feels same as today's~

i hate someone!

if someone can make me angry like this, means i really angry ad!!!!!!
i hate all of you!
actually was your's gang have problems! why want pull me into it!!!
谁最假,心知就好, 我对得起自己的良心~
i never use my eyes see you all before, because i dint know your exist ~
so, use your brain when want to say something~
don't always used your bud!! useless! F
and, don't always use your face to look at me, it just same like shit!
better don't know my exist, that good for me!

all my friend very good, i like them as my angel and my baby!
don't use your shit mouth to give any comment about them, you are incompetence!
3 those of you! take care a bit!
you can don't choi me and even don't looking at me..
but please control your eyes ball and your shit face!
and better don't write anything about my friend in the public post！
you can dislike me and talk anythings about me! but don't talk about my friends!!!!
说人坏话之前请看看你自己~
成绩不是大完的！请不要再和我朋友乱说话，如果是事实我不介意，但那些有的没的请你嘴巴收一收。调味料也不用放这么多，小心食物中毒！
还有！我不允许你说我朋友坏话！
请不要越过我的底线，我的忍耐是有限度的！
TO: 3 trouble makers

i hear that....

today just same as before...
woke up, having breakfast, studying, school off, go peggy house, and go taekwondo training...

but today my old friend at RAWANG call me in the sudden when i'm staying at peggy's house..
this was my 1st time cry with no any resent~
i think peggy and alison must felt worried...

my friend Ashley called me and say: carmen, XX have new girl friend ad, and he.......
my tears just falling down at the moment~
actually i don't knew what i'm cried for...
is it i really can't forget him?
my heart was told me, yes... i can't forget him until now...

my heart just thinking, a guy can forget all the memories inside two years with me in two month...
i'm going to crazy...
my brain just reminded me don't cry infront people,
but my heart just called me, just let off all the unhappy and pain through your tears...

alison has borrow me her shoulder for a while in the garden...
i think i'm not that strong...
but it won't take long...
someday you will realize, why i'm changed?
the answer is, just because of you~

although i can't say anythings now...
but... i wish you happy with her...

from: KM (it will be the last massage for me to remember you)

最幸福的事

一个女人最幸福最漂亮的时候，是穿上婚纱的那一瞬间~
无论是多坚强的她，也会期待穿上婚纱和心爱的另一半步入教堂...
无论是多么喜欢自由的他，也会盼望有一头幸福温暖的家...
女孩需要的是一个可以依靠的肩膀，
男孩需要的是一个可以倾诉的耳朵。

幸福得来不易~
你可以让他/她流泪，但请记得...那是不是伤心的泪水，
而是感动的眼泪!!
“珍惜”比一切来得重要~
不要让自己遗憾哦.

[喜欢可以有很多个，但爱却只有一个] (> _<)


给自己的话：过去了就过去了，何必耿耿于怀呢？一切从新来过，好好的完成对他的承诺，好好照顾自己~ 虽然知道自己无法忘记，但是..时间会冲淡一切~或许下一次见到他，他已忘了有我的存在吧... 两个最熟悉的陌生人，是最终的结局不是吗？你要坚强一点，慢慢地学会放下一切~不要再哭了...

felt painful..

competition of taekwondo is coming soon..
1th MAY 2011 at "cheras badminton court(光明羽球场)"
i wish all my friends can go support~

feel tired around this month, very stressful~
it is because i want prepare "oral task, lisan, taekwondo, and so on..."
i‘m bruise during taekwondo training last week...
so painful, but i very enjoy the course during the practice~

i have many friend accompany by my side,
damn happy, and i don't have the feeling of lonely~
although i'm single and no people sek me like last year~
but i really enjoy my school life and taekwondo life with my friends~

i wish my life can keep briefness and happy like this moment forever~
LOVED THE BRIEFNESS LIFE!!!!

is my life!

me and darling peggy

wow, is it felt yeng??
hehe, me and dear alison

pain, pain, pain!!!!!!

Buddies!
keep smiling even you facing any trouble!
don't give up, all will be OK ( ^_ < )

a rainy day...

today was my 1st time to peggy's house~
both of us went to her house by our legs~
walking... walking... and walking..
suddenly, the sky cry without warming!!!
shit!!!

just only a way ... RUN!!!
a nice memories for me and peggy~

peggy: walking in the rain...

my wendy...
(she is hardworking to done her EKO, shuuuu, don't disturb her)

there are in discussing about national conference!

this was a pic i'm take in front of our school~
this tree look like a love shape right?

just do it~

don't confused when you want to do something!
don't scared when you want to walk forward!
don't think too much when you really want to do!

JUST DO IT!
achieve your dreams with me!!!!

i has watched a drama from Korean  called “secret garden”
this really a nice drama!

i like the story in this drama...
it just same with my life..
but the end sure not same as them...
anyway, if you free, you sure have to watch~
this was my sincere recommended！

my life going...

many problems appear in the sudden around me...

all about my friendship..

i really don't know how to solve this problems as well..

just let this problems going until the end..

this is the most fine way for me..

i do not agree yours' attitude,

i dislike my friends to have doubts on me...

maybe i'm not the one who you willing to trust and believe~

i just can see clearly who are my true friends through this problems..

thx my dear friend, i will to treasure our's friendship forever~

A, W ,P .. thank you so much...

thanks for your's trust...

i really never been cheat anyone.. although they still make many trouble..

a real's friends will support you and believe you when others speak ill of you~

and i'm going to report my result in this exam..

BM (42%) - E

BI (65%) - B+

BC (56%) - C

SC (80%) - A

AMT (97%) - A+

MAT (93%) - A+

SEJ (60%) - B

MOR (68%) - B+

AK (77%) - A-

EKO (73%) - A-

i really disappointed about my result, my dad not really satisfaction about my result..

GAMBATEH...

p/s: dad, please don't cut down my pocket money~

Renew my passport

today i went to renew my passport with my mom~
actually, not many people at there..
so no need waiting for a long time~

just waiting around 1 hour then my passport was done~
wohoo... so lucky wad~
^^

so expectancy the travel to Thailand ~
actually i travel to Thailand all the time, so i knew all the nice places at there..
it is a nice location to relax yourself and shopping~
the things sold at there are cheapest...
i'm going to bankruptcy after this travel..
so sad....

hehe XD

sambil tunggul sambil minum teh limau ice

really a big building

going to take my passport